So I feel like a real failure today. Haven’t worked out since Thursday, didn’t go 4 times this week like I have been wanting to and I have also been slacking in eating well. Times are getting tough and I feel like I have definitely hit a plateau and am losing motivation. Then I remembered that I ordered my dress for Nicole’s wedding in June, a size smaller. MOTIVATION FOUND!! However, gym, eating and weight loss aside, here was my day today friends. I didn’t even realize until this very second that I didn’t weigh myself out of the sheer business of this morning. At the house today we got to throw a wonderful baby shower for our friend Kristin at our church which was very fun to be apart of.
In other news, our worship leader has been sick with some really aggressive throat issues and has been hoarse or with no voice for the better part of 3 weeks now. This has meant that I was asked to lead our church in worship last week. With not a lot of progress in His health, I am once again in the position to lead worship. So most of you reading this know that I love music and was a total choir nerd all through school. I love playing and being apart of a worship team and count it as a grace and honor to have learned what I have from some incredible musicians, from my beginnings at New Life and now at Doxa. But nothing I have done up top this point prepared me for this. I have found a whole new respect for worship leaders and singers who do this every week. God is so good in order to give me this opportunity to be able to lead and lean on Him to carry me through and relieve my anxiety. I am so grateful to my church and my roomies for all their encouragement even though I didn’t know I’d be able to do it, let alone do a good job. I’m also very thankful for my Pastors and leaders for giving me the opportunity to grow in this area. A couple of them especially vocalized that this was going to be good for me, even though I have been very resistant to the whole idea because it is so out of my comfort zone. Which is where I have found is usually where God puts us, in one form or another, for our growth in reliance and obedience to Him. I am ever-so grateful that God continues to surprise me in opportunities and ways that I can rely on Him! And always out of nowhere! This whole situation, I mean, its something I used to think I could totally do, no problem. Something that I thought “didn’t seem that hard,” but my goodness is it a humbling experience to actually be given the opportunity to do it!
This leads me to ask for prayer for tomorrow. I hope to not be as nervous as I was last week, meaning a constant adrenaline rush of nerves and butterflies in my stomach! I hope I am quick to pray in those moments of anxiety. Should I have to lead for a 3rd week, I really want to do as best I can, tomorrow included, to point people to Jesus in leading the congregation to fall more in love with Him through worship. And practically, that I don’t get light headed belting out the songs that I have grown to enjoy singing and playing with the fellas on worship team. I have a lot more hope for tomorrow and God is good to remind me that the true purpose of worship is to express his goodness and glorify Him. So practice as I may, flat notes, sloppy intros or maybe even an extra instrumental line, those are not as important as giving praise to my Creator and allowing Him to put me out of my comfort Zone.
Here’s to not staying comfortable! =)
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Saturday, February 25, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Hello Cyberland =)
Well friends it's been a while! My apologies for my absence, in case any of you out there in cyberland reading this have been in great aniticipation of this next blog. =)
Good news: I am down 19 lbs since weighing myself post Snowmageddon in mid-Janruary! What a crazy thing you guys! I didn't expect to be down to that so fast! The past few weeks I have been so surprised at the ability and strength I have been given to push myself in our workouts. I am so grateful for my roomies and other friends who have come and worked out. It's so much more fun in a group or with a friend! For those of you who have seen my check-ins at Planet Fitness, I can bring a friend for free everytime I go, so let me know if you ever want to join me! I love having work out buddies. :D I also put that we do a specific type of work out called "Phase 2." You can't google or bing this workout because it is something my pastor made up in his freakishly creative mind and a very handy app on his iPad. As of now, this is what briefly what the workout consists of:
- 28 mins cardio-we go on the ellyptical
- 7-10 strengthening lifts-usually we start with abs and then do different lifts that focus all different parts of the body
- 28 mins cardio
- 5-7 strengthening lifts
- 45 mins cardio
Let me tell you this, the 2 weeks, I could not do the last 45 minutes. I didn't even try to do it out of pure exhaustion. So I went tanning instead. I mean, I had to kill time somehow you guys =)
Honestly, I'm all too conviced that it was a strength for the Lord for me to recieve motivation and strength to push through the numbing of my feet and tiredness of my body to do that last 45 minutes. It is an insane thing that I can say that I can do this workout! If you want to give it a go let me know how you like it! It is killer but the pay off is incredible! And I start to like this workout the more I think that there is a phase 3 in the future, lol. :/
Quite a bit of things have been going on in my life lately and for me, I am completely in awe of God's goodness through it all! I am totally in shock of how through some of life's more down moments, God has been able to carry me through them, give me strength, and the desire to fight for joy, hope and peace. I am filled with it through the Holy Spirit and it is one of the most beautiful things I have yet to be able to experience because of my beautiful Creator. The desire to grow closer and intimately to Him has brought beautiful new things into my life. God drawing me more to Himself has given me a freedom that has brought me closer to my community and church, and even deeper, more caring and more loving friendships with those closest to me. Several times over the past weeks I have been so overwhelmed with emotion that I have found myself just crying out to God in thanks for His goodness, grace and love. Do you have those moments of overwhelming emotion? Like good things that make you burst into the ugly cry because life is just so wonderful? Just me then? Coooool.
Keep fighting friends. This is only a small victory in the grand scheme of things that God has in store for me, but through teeny beginnings of 19 lbs loss and a constant dependency on Him and His strength to persevere to accompish my goals, I have faith that God knows His plans for my life.
Here's to fighting for joy!
Good news: I am down 19 lbs since weighing myself post Snowmageddon in mid-Janruary! What a crazy thing you guys! I didn't expect to be down to that so fast! The past few weeks I have been so surprised at the ability and strength I have been given to push myself in our workouts. I am so grateful for my roomies and other friends who have come and worked out. It's so much more fun in a group or with a friend! For those of you who have seen my check-ins at Planet Fitness, I can bring a friend for free everytime I go, so let me know if you ever want to join me! I love having work out buddies. :D I also put that we do a specific type of work out called "Phase 2." You can't google or bing this workout because it is something my pastor made up in his freakishly creative mind and a very handy app on his iPad. As of now, this is what briefly what the workout consists of:
- 28 mins cardio-we go on the ellyptical
- 7-10 strengthening lifts-usually we start with abs and then do different lifts that focus all different parts of the body
- 28 mins cardio
- 5-7 strengthening lifts
- 45 mins cardio
Let me tell you this, the 2 weeks, I could not do the last 45 minutes. I didn't even try to do it out of pure exhaustion. So I went tanning instead. I mean, I had to kill time somehow you guys =)
Honestly, I'm all too conviced that it was a strength for the Lord for me to recieve motivation and strength to push through the numbing of my feet and tiredness of my body to do that last 45 minutes. It is an insane thing that I can say that I can do this workout! If you want to give it a go let me know how you like it! It is killer but the pay off is incredible! And I start to like this workout the more I think that there is a phase 3 in the future, lol. :/
Quite a bit of things have been going on in my life lately and for me, I am completely in awe of God's goodness through it all! I am totally in shock of how through some of life's more down moments, God has been able to carry me through them, give me strength, and the desire to fight for joy, hope and peace. I am filled with it through the Holy Spirit and it is one of the most beautiful things I have yet to be able to experience because of my beautiful Creator. The desire to grow closer and intimately to Him has brought beautiful new things into my life. God drawing me more to Himself has given me a freedom that has brought me closer to my community and church, and even deeper, more caring and more loving friendships with those closest to me. Several times over the past weeks I have been so overwhelmed with emotion that I have found myself just crying out to God in thanks for His goodness, grace and love. Do you have those moments of overwhelming emotion? Like good things that make you burst into the ugly cry because life is just so wonderful? Just me then? Coooool.
Keep fighting friends. This is only a small victory in the grand scheme of things that God has in store for me, but through teeny beginnings of 19 lbs loss and a constant dependency on Him and His strength to persevere to accompish my goals, I have faith that God knows His plans for my life.
Here's to fighting for joy!
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