I love the conversations I find myself in with the people of Doxa. And more often the ones with my rommies. Every now and again a few, or all of us will get into some really amazing honest conversations and I often leave thinking all day about them. God is continuing to grow me to new depths as to what honesty really means. You know what I mean, it's those thoughts in your head, what you really think, but would never say out loud for fear of judgement, criticism or rejection? Well, those kind of words are the goal to get to in conversation. They are mostly phrased in loving, caring ways, but we are human, and I especially, happen to know how to word things in the worst way possible, then have to re-track what I mean to say so it doesn't come across as harsh, rude or completely insulting. With these conversation one learns that there is a huge difference between using words to hurt just to hurt and saying hard words to wound in a way that allows the Holy Spirit to grow us nearer to our Heavenly Father. It is painful. Being honest, it hurts sometimes. But it is in that pain that we grow. Whether its the revelation the Holy Spirit gives us about ourselves and our own wickedness and sin or the times we see friends and have to lovingly come alongside them and bring certain sins to light. Its an incredible comfort to have a community of people around who love each one another through struggles and sin. Who can come together and support and lift one another up when we feel most ugly and disgusted. I am in continued awe that God would lead me to such a wonderful place like Doxa.
Finally learning to be honest. I used to think I knew the meaning of the word honest, God has made lovingly it clear that I didn't have a clue =) I have no doubts that I will want to blog about this topic, honesty more and more as Christ continues to reveal more to me about what that means. It has been one of the many things that stands out in what Christ is doing in me for my sanctification. So for now, this can just be Part 1.
Here's to the beauty of honesty
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