Guilt-free Eating??

I feel like I start every blog out with, "well, It's been a few weeks.." I am so bad at this blogging thing! I am very inconsistent and I am sorry to the 3 of you out there who read this. lol

Well, last week(the 12th) I lost no weight! I stayed the same. Which for me is fine. I didn't work out and I definitely strayed from Paleo a bit. So I'd rather stay the same weight than gain!

This morning I weighed myself to find I was down another 2 lbs!! Now here is the miracle of Jesus: I worked out Monday. That is it. One day. Doesn't seem like enough to have me lose weight! Granted, I did a phase 3 which included a whole 60 minutes on the cybex, which is like a stair stepper sort of machine. For more of an illustration, what the ellyptical is to the treadmill, this thing is to a stair stepper.

I have been having an incredibly hard time these last 2 weeks wanting to stick to Paleo you guys. But let me say this first!! I really REALLY love this way of eating!! I truly love how I feel on it and love what seems to be happening to my body, even though most times in the mirror I don't always see it, I still love it! So this last week, I had definitely had my cheat moments. I had many thins that are not paleo approved, but still are incredibly healthy well balanced choices. I also came to a really hard place where I was feeling incredibly guilty for eating so "poorly in my mind. I am incredibly quick to forget how extreme paleo eating is and it was revealed that I am being way to hard on myself.

We had a fun ladies night last wednesday, had dinner and my friend Amy's house(she just had her precious little girl Kenzie on saturday!) and she was the best hostess!! She as so kind to ask me what foods I can have, as she and another lady friend are vegetarians, and made a meal catering to all our specific diets! What an incredible lady!! Then we, of course with the premiere of the last installment, watched Breaking Dawn Part 1. It was the most splendid of nights with some great gal pals. As we were all talking about diets, eating, ways of dieting, weight loss, health and what not, I was asked about my diet and my fight against food and how I have lost some weight and what not. I got an opportunity, seriously given by the Holy Spirit, to be honest about my guilt and struggle and how even though I did NOT want to make this a diet where I would feel guilty for my slip-ups, that is exactly what it turned into. And with the holidays coming up and me actually wanting to enjoy them and eat some good food for one day ya know?

One of the wonderful ladies there gave me some exceptional advice for the upcoming holiday season of which I will for sure be using for holidays with fam and special occasions. and not everyday is a special occasion! I have to remind myself of that ;) She told me to make a sort of mental contract with myself. Tell myself before hand what I will allow myself to eat, like one piece of pie, not 3, or a small portion of mashed potatoes(because man I love carbs!) not half a plate full. This was , I know what I am allowing myself to have and i can actually enjoy it without guilt. 

This may be something that some of you readers have done before and have known about for a long time, but this is a very new concept to me. Cheating willfully on a strict eating plan and being able to enjoy it? An incredibly foreign concept for his lady. But my life is not my diet. Nor do I want my life to revolve around it or be consumed by it. By life is meant to revolve around Christ. My life is meant to be one of obedience to him, not a slave to the food I consume as a means to renovate my pathetic and uncared for temple of a body.

I hope that you all have had a wonderful weekend and look forward to writing a blog about my thankfulness and it is the ultimate week of thankfulness in this week of Thanksgiving =) 

Here's to eating guilt free!