Twice Already

Hey kiddos. Worked out again this morning! That is twice this week and it is only wednesday! This is really good for a lady like me andI am pretty happy about that. Considering I have probably not mae the best food choices I have worked out which I hope will balance out. Don't know if any of you look at twice a week as a victory, but you should! I think that its wonderful =)

So I was thinking about my weekend and how great it was! We got to sing Christmas music for the first time in Doxa's history and I thought it was pretty wonderful, granted the rocky start we had with practicing a few brand new songs which we had never ever played before. New songs in themselves are scary when playing them the first time but Christmas songs are special(if you ask me I think so anyway). About a week ago some of my roomies and I had a conversation with a friend where he was asking some very very difficult questions about the Bible and Christianity. I know what I believe and I know what the Bible says about truth and the ways that God has revealed Himself to me. However, I am not the best at re-communicating said things in order for them to be easily understood and lovingly explained. Mostly I am a coward and just let someone else from my church community or Pastor(who has an insane gift in this area) handle those tough questions. I am far too fearful that when I try to communicate them it will come across terribly wrong, mean, righteous or unintelligable. But after a conversation with one of my roomies about my fears in this area, He told me that I at least have to try. He reminded me that there is no possible way to get better at it if I don't try to answer those questions that are hard to answer. By attempting to answer those tough questions to those asking I will learn what works, what doesn't and will hopefully be able to know what to say next time I am asked those questions in a more loving and better communicated way. Ouch. I suck. I don't even try!! I am so lame! How do I expect to help further the Gospel when I don't even attempt to answer questions when God gives me an opportunity to share truth?? It was a refreshing and painful thing to hear but it also revealed something else when I shared this situation at prayer yesterday morning. I don't really trust that God will be able to redeem what I have to say. I have to trust that what I put say to people God will use, grow and redeem for His Glory and however He sees fit to use my words. How little faith do I have? Smaller than a mustard seed for sure!

Here's to trusting that God redeems even the worst communication!